My beautiful husband keeps telling me everything will be good. Why can't I believe him??? The fear creeps into my mind at strange times, making me sad and anxious. Is that a normal reaction for cancer survivors? I am hoping it is. I know my friends and family think I am the greatest thing since sliced bread because I am so optimistic and smiling........sorry to burst your bubble on how you picture me. But, the truth is, I think, and hope I am just like every other cancer survivor, or anyone else for that matter, that has had life changing events in their life.
I truly did have the best Christmas ever. Take a look at a "smiling" me. And, my two grandchildren that God so graciously gave to me.
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| At Longwood Gardens, PA on Christmas Eve |
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| My grandchildren on Christmas morning |
When I am troubled I do search out inspirational messages to help me. Here is one I found that has helped me today. Hope it does the same for you on days that make you anxious.
Philippians 4: 6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your request be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I also have turned the corner and am giving away some watercolors I have painted over the past several years. It truly does feel very good to "give." I have given away, so far, 23 original paintings to some of my family. Here are just two of them, sorry to anyone that wanted these, I have plenty more to choose from.
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| Have you been naughty or nice? |
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| The sun will lift your spirits! |
It is very normal and healthy to have these feelings to anxiety. I can't even imagine what you are going through. From my time spent with people with cancer, some are blissfully unaware of anything, while other dwell and over-focus on their illness, allowing it to overpower their lives. You, I believe, are the goldilocks of them all "just right". A little worry is good, it means you know it can be serious, but still can find the positive parts of your life. Good luck tomorrow, Keep me posted :) I Love you! Lots of warm hugs! -Patricia
ReplyDeletePatricia, what a sweet niece you are to me. You should know full well what a struggle is like, good days and some bad. If you can persevere, I can as well. Love you sweet baby girl!
DeleteYou mentioned we thought having you as a friend was better than sliced bread....I consider it better than having all of Liz Taylor's diamonds! Just think, I was so worried about going to the dentist this morning. I can't imagine how anxious you are today. Just have a small glass of wine and by tomorrow afternoon, you will look back on today and wonder why did I worry.
ReplyDeleteJean, you know how special you are to me. Always there to pick me up when need be. But, I tell you I still would like some of Liz Taylor's diamonds! Oh well, I will settle for the wine and just dream.......
DeleteOh, Glenda, yes, you are normal and these feelings go along with the journey you've walked for so long. You are human, not a "saint" (no matter what we often say); God gave you his Holy Spirit. In the words of Roman 8, the Holy Spirit intercedes for us with "sighs too deep for words". I'm glad you put your mood into words so we, who love you, can send loving words back. We are all thinking good and strong thoughts and sending love to you especially this week. I'm so glad this Christmas had such blessings as your two little jewels!!!
ReplyDeleteDear sweet Carol, One of our dearest friends. We have a bond in Christ's love for us. I will stay strong and keep fighting, have no fear.
DeletePrecious Lady, I thought your strength was intimidating when I only saw your optimism and positive attitude. But it is nothing compared to what you have allowed us to seen in your moment of doubt and weakness. Because it truly is only a moment. And the strength of this moment comes from beyond yourself. I have no doubt that the report will be a good one. But good or not, in this moment and through all that has gone before, you have proven the report does not define you! And it is not the final answer.
ReplyDeleteTrust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
Love you!!
Thank you sweet Robin for your encouraging words. I do have a strong faith and whatever the Lord has in front of me I will follow him. He has never let me down, sometimes I always thought he did, but as time goes on I realize what I was asking for was not right. So as I am older and hopefully wiser now, I trust Him more and more. Love to you my sweet niece.
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